My job sucks. I feel... impotent... here, and get frustrated. My supervisor is utterly unhelpful.
I stay up late making dissertation revisions. I toss and turn and can't fall asleep till the wee hours, despite being tired as hell. My committee sucks - they are so totally disinterested in my
dissertation and give me the feeling I am just a pain in the ass for them (another email from me they have to ignore -- I am, lucky for them, a very mild pain, if I do say so). I tried to schedule a
defense date in October, and N told me she doesn't yet know what she'll have going on in October so she can't say. I was mildly insulted but tried not to get irritated. I also wrote her about something unrelated and she copied Miss Piggy on the email (he has no business in my business) and asked me to cc him on my reply (I owe him no explanations for anything) and he sent me an email saying no need to keep him in the loop (I **HATE** to see his name in my inbox -- this one REALLY got me riled up). I also hate that he's (still!) a part of my life, even if marginally so. I want that entire experience eradicated from my memory.

Sigh....

While I can't quite balance out my whining with equal parts pleasantness, I can at least report that I met a really nice guy today for lunch. Just super nice and really smart and mild mannered and all those good things. And after work I go to meet some woman (they're
hard to meet in these here parts) at a wine bar. I've never done the "girlfriend" thing, and am giving it a whirl.